These thoughts have been stirring in my head for a few months, ever since I heard the song "Awakening" - You can listen to it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-AmvyGu1WeA
I have always been moved by music...I find it to be one of the best comforter's of my soul. It is one of the few things that can calm my ADD brain and allow myself to be truly present and one tracked. I have never claimed to have an easy spiritual journey. I still find myself caught up with worrying (No matter how worn out Matthew 6:25-34 has gotten in my Bible) or feeling like I will never be enough to truly receive the love He has for me. I have struggled for a long time with self-worth and feeling that I am "good enough" to receive that kind of love, not just in my relationship with Him, but even with my amazing husband. It is almost like I start to let myself open up to all the beauty and love and then I hear one of those desperate lies come creeping into my thoughts and close down.
On nights when I can't sleep, I usually put my iPod on and listen to music. I have just downloaded that song a few days before, but had not listened to it. I know this may sound weird, but I always pray that He would give me the songs I need to hear and put my iPod on shuffle and go with it. This song was the first to come on that evening...as the words began to fill my senses,